Confessions of an optimist

Yes, I am one of those ones… An optimist. I try to see the most positive outlook on life and make the most of each situation. I generally believe that there are good people in the world and they mean well.

However, I think people assume optimists live in ‘silver lining’ land and don’t consider the real aspects of life. Well, believe me, as an optimist, we do realise things can go horribly wrong and they have gone horribly wrong for me. But I simply just do not wait for the bad things to happen in life, which I know could happen but I have this hope that in the end things will work out for the best. When I think of the negative side of things I feel bad emotionally and physically. The bad thoughts eat me up inside and I can not bare to think of them anymore. For me, it’s better to think positive.

Although, in this world the things that are happening can not be put in a positive light and even the most optimistic optimist can not approach these situations with a positive attitude. But for me, I am realistic. I understand the crazy things that happen in our world, and realise there can not be a happy go lucky mentality to these events. However for my life, I am applying the optimistic, ever happy attitude to me, the individual, and my life. I see my glass half full for the most part.

As the saying goes, ‘Do you see the glass half empty, or half full?’.

The moody sea = me

‘I have seen the sea when it is stormy and wild; when it is quiet and serene; when it is dark and moody, and in all moods I see myself.’ Martin Buxhaun

The sea in Spain is nothing like the one in Ireland. Here it is calm, glisteningly blue and warm, which are complete opposites to the freezing, icy water of the Irish Sea. However, the sea in the Canary Islands has its how you would say ‘moments’. Depending on the weather, the mood of the sea changes and changes quite dramatically and this, I feel, could be a reflection of me and my moods.

I consider myself a positive, optimistic person but sometimes I let little things affect me, which I really shouldn’t. My mood and thinking can change by an event, a person or a simple word. The mood of one person, can in turn affect my own attitude at that particular moment. Sometimes this really frustrates me. I wish I was the type of person that could brush the situation off and be selfish about myself. But this is really not in my nature.

My mum always says I am too worried about what people think about me, and I have come to realise that this is very true. Perhaps this is why I let people affect me so much. A simple example is how I worry about writing on this blog due to the fear of what people will think about what I say and in general what they will think of me.

As my birthday is soon approaching I am proposing to myself, not to necessarily be more selfish, but to consider myself more and to stop worrying about what others think. Don’t let others affect me and try to be myself!!! I want to be me! 🙂