The moody sea = me

‘I have seen the sea when it is stormy and wild; when it is quiet and serene; when it is dark and moody, and in all moods I see myself.’ Martin Buxhaun

The sea in Spain is nothing like the one in Ireland. Here it is calm, glisteningly blue and warm, which are complete opposites to the freezing, icy water of the Irish Sea. However, the sea in the Canary Islands has its how you would say ‘moments’. Depending on the weather, the mood of the sea changes and changes quite dramatically and this, I feel, could be a reflection of me and my moods.

I consider myself a positive, optimistic person but sometimes I let little things affect me, which I really shouldn’t. My mood and thinking can change by an event, a person or a simple word. The mood of one person, can in turn affect my own attitude at that particular moment. Sometimes this really frustrates me. I wish I was the type of person that could brush the situation off and be selfish about myself. But this is really not in my nature.

My mum always says I am too worried about what people think about me, and I have come to realise that this is very true. Perhaps this is why I let people affect me so much. A simple example is how I worry about writing on this blog due to the fear of what people will think about what I say and in general what they will think of me.

As my birthday is soon approaching I am proposing to myself, not to necessarily be more selfish, but to consider myself more and to stop worrying about what others think. Don’t let others affect me and try to be myself!!! I want to be me! 🙂